Valentines. hmmm.

im thinking soon i'll be one of those grouchy ppl that think valentine's is the time that people rip you off, a total waste of time and a total waste of heartache.



is it wrong to think of someone that you shouldnt have.
eventhough those memories was vague


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busy busy busy.

my aim this year
UAI: 90++.

therefore i shall spent a huge chunk of my life into studying and not to think of anything else.
hahh. as if.

i vow to finish all my homework and assessments ON TIME.
i vow to study for every freakin assesments and yearlies before hand and NOT CRAM ON THE VERY LAST MINUTE.
i vow to be a responsible student.

i vow to keep my promise as above.

Fading Away.

"Just give me a minute to restart my heart"



what is my expectation toward "it"??
week after week of anticipating and waiting.
week after week of dissappointment.

now it goes to a point where im sick of it now.
i want MORE.

is that too much to ask??





37 days more.

MTV Asia Awards!!

why the hell when im here and they've decided to hold MTV asia awards in Msia!!!
i cant believe that im missing it.
curse curse curse!!


i cant believe im missing that!!
and daughtry as well.
i mean i can literally walk to catch Daughtry live if i wanted to.

uurrgghhh!!!

tale of a sisterhood.

in a way im very envious of the sisterhood of the travelling pants.

i wish that i have something like that to keep for myself.

its not about the jeans. but the friendship itself.

i mean how often do u find friends that had known each other all their lives but suddenly realising that they have to go on seperate ways. despite of that still makes a huge effort to be there for each other and stay connected to each other..

eventhough its the jeans that keeps them together.

in a way, im like them.

i am one of the few that have went seperate ways from my loved ones.

i am however a very sentimental person who finds leaving what i used to had a very hard thing to do.

but. unlike them. i do not have such luck to have such friends.

i do not have such friends that tries to be there for u in anyway they can.

or even makes the effort to know about the lastest happenings.

it really depresses me sometime.

i see myself keep holding on to my past but its slowly slipping away from me.

in return i find myself having nothing to fall back to.

that im on my own no matter what.

as i have absolutely no one to depend on.

i really wish.

that i have someone to fall back to. someone that i know is forever mine. someone that i know is there for me to share my everything. someone to tell me what to do when im lost. someone to love me on my most miserable days (almost everyday).

sometimes i feel that im asking too much.

or im thinking too much.

so probably this holiday. i'll be hiring the sisterhood of travelling pants 1&2 to watch.

and maybe imagining myself as one of them.

as it is the closest i can get.

The problem is ME

havent done much lately.
school's been the same.


sigh. i miss watching tv at home.
its been so so long since i just sit there and and watch the whole day.
yep. i miss oc. E!. beyond the break and ARRGHH i just want my TVEE!!!!
not HAPPEEE.
there's just so much that i want to watch.

did i mention that i havent had a taste of mcD since im here.
its been how long?? a month i guess. woah. even im suprise.

there's always homeworks everyday.
and A LOT of it.



gee. i just miss you ppl a lot.

where is everyone!!

its so difficult to talk to ppl nowdays.
no one is ever online!! :(
the time difference is so annoying. its three hours faster here.
so i cant actually stay up late so catch everyone during the peak hours.
it'll be like 2 or 3am for me.
arhhhhh. go online earlier ppl!!!

its been typically the same for me everyday.
well almost at least.
stocking up groceries during noon. out for lunch then stay back in for dinner.
its quite a bore to be honest. i'll been going in and out of castle tower every single day.
had latte earlier. i few sick.

i need some excitement!!! lol.
school's starting in 2 days.
very nervous.
i need a job too.
Hire me TARGET!!
staff discount can be so sweet.