Fading Away.

"Just give me a minute to restart my heart"



what is my expectation toward "it"??
week after week of anticipating and waiting.
week after week of dissappointment.

now it goes to a point where im sick of it now.
i want MORE.

is that too much to ask??





37 days more.

does it mean anything?

i need something to knock me over now. alcohol?
something to make me stop thinking and just go to bed.

something to make me forget all this and live my life as i always would.
or something to make me gunuinely happy again.

Broken

i've lost a friend today.


i havent been in this situation for years.
i doubt it if its worth while.

i experience the pain.
and it hurts.

i know im a jerk sometimes.
but you could be when you're in my shoes.


i guess its another soppy emo song day till i fall asleep.